I long for you more than any watchman would long for the morning light. I will watch and wait for you, O God, throughout the night. -Psalm 130:6 TPT
This reference came to mind this morning as I focused my heart on, "God what should I read from the Bible?". Instead of auto-piloting it, I thought to ask. So I looked it up in different translations and also with Strong's Numbers, trying to see if there was any hidden meaning inside the original text. But after researching for a little while, I sensed God bringing me back to the impression I had when I first read the verse. He was simply telling me to have the perspective of the watchman. And that got me thinking...
When night comes and it gets dark outside, that is a change the watchman cannot control. He may have a torch to light up his direct surroundings, but no amount of torches will be able to change the night back into day. In a way, he is a 'victim' to the darkness. It overcomes him and it is out of his control, he can only use the tools he has at his disposal to try to make it through until morning.
At night he must remain critically aware of dangers and intruders because the darkness presents the perfect opportunity for them to come (and go) undetected. He is on high alert at the time of day when his body only wants to sleep, and his is definitely a high-stress job. But one thing is certain- and that is what gives him courage and motivation to put so much energy into doing his job well- the sun will rise. And while evil men will still scheme, it is much harder for them to attack when darkness isn't hiding them.
Right now, in the situation I am in, I can sometimes feel helpless and overwhelmed. It's easy (though not helpful) to feel that I am a 'victim' to my circumstances. Often I feel weary and tired of being on high-alert for what has felt like one, long unending night. So this verse was a welcome reminder of the fact that morning will come. My morning will come. God's light SURELY will break this night and that gives me courage to "gird up my loins" and focus on the task at hand: guarding that what has been entrusted to me.
I was happily surprised, and touched, with these words found in verse 7 of Psalm 130: "... keep waiting on the Lord, for he is tenderhearted, kind and forgiving. He has a thousand ways to set you free!"
So yes God, I receive this promise into my heart: your light WILL break through my night. I cherish it, I honor the words that you have spoken to me and I believe that what you have said is true. Thank you that I don't have to stay stuck in this victim-mindset. For though my circumstances are overwhelming (no need to deny that)- you have "a thousand ways to set me free" and that means there is hope. I pray that this hope will not be shallow and only seeking a quick-fix, or a quick relief from any pain or discomfort I am feeling right now. But that this hope will spur me on to fully complete, fully fulfill every good work that you have laid out for my life. I don't want to settle for less because I am uncomfortable. I don't want to suffer more than necessary because of near sightedness or tunnel vision. So Lord let this hope of your sure-coming light give me courage to make it through this night.